I think I will use this first blog entry as an introduction into why I am doing this (be prepared this will be a long one). For years I’ve always wanted to put my thoughts and feelings out there, but have been too afraid out of fear of being judged. So I’ve came to the conclusion that I should finally start blogging. My aims for this are quite selfish I must admit, I’m really just wanting to offload thoughts I have on a daily basis that I’m currently finding hard to deal with. I’m not even sure if anyone will come across this let alone read it and to be honest that disappoints me a little but I promise stick at this even if that does become the case.
I don’t think it’s fair that I remain totally anonymous so I’ll give you some insight into who I am. There’s not much to me…really, I’m 23 years old living in the UK. As far as family goes the only ones worth mentioning would be my mum, my gran and my two older brothers (2 and 4 years older than me). The rest of my family I don’t really speak to, even on special occasions like Christmas or birthdays. My friend circle is quite small but I feel like it’s a lot to handle and over the course of these blogs maybe you will come to understand why…or maybe you’ll just think I’ve lost the plot and hey you wouldn’t be the first one.
Next I think I’ll tell you about my up brining just in case that helps you understand this all a bit more. I grew up poor. Like the type of poor where my trainers I wore to school would have holes in the bottom and sometimes I wouldn’t get a new pair for a month or two because we never had that type of money. The designer clothes I wore were hand me downs from my neighbourhood friends, I never bought my first designer piece of clothing until I was 17. Luckily for me the bullying I encountered didn’t last long mainly because I decided to become the class clown so everyone wanted to be my friend rather than pick on me, and also partly because I good at thinking up excuses on the spot. I moved house five times each time to a different city so I never really held down a solid group of friends even though I got through all five years of secondary school without having to move school which at the time I considered a luxury. So growing up I could always count on my two brothers and my mum for support and advice so I knew I was loved so no problems there.
Part of me doesn’t really know where I’m going with all this, I’ll be taking it day by day seeing how it goes giving you as much of my thoughts on little and big situations that I encounter. If you’ve read this far then I congratulate you, if over the course of these blogs you feel like you can relate to what I’m talking about then I hope it’s for the better and not the worse.
As I bring this first blog entry to a close I hope I didn’t bore you too much and if I did then I apologise, the only thing I can tell you is it will get better.
To you with love, THC x.
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